replace this pain

hurt that can never be heal,pain that can never be stop only a person strength thats only can hold it inside.my feeling are so deep that can never be save by anybody.if I can I wanted to run far far away from this place that always brings me those hurtfully feelings is there anybody that can understant this? if only you become a part of me then you would know this feelings.God why can't I separate from what I have done I want to leave those memories away from me.T.T Dearest friends are you really my friends or you were just there to make my feelings worse than ever..I feel like ending this life but I have not complete my quest that Im searching for..can I just remove this heart and continue living with no heart with me? maybe that would be better rigth?

lost love

sacrifice every single moment for the sake of people happiness,I am just like a something that were use to death and revive just to feel this hurtfully feeling..If its for happiness I won't mind doing it cause Im use to it.but the question is until went am I goin to do this?when is my happiness coming?or am I just have to live every single moment of my life sacrificing for people..I hope the love that Im waiting will find me one day cause I knew she will be the one that will bring me happiness..